I just spent time with my mom and my sister going through jewelry with them that is my moms and all i can say is that i am at a loss for words. my mom isnt doing well at all and no one knows how long she has left. could be an hour, a day, a week, a month no one knows and it honestly breaks my heart. theres soo much i want to share with her in life and have her watch her 2 daughters get married and what not but thats not going to happen and it kills me it honestly does. i dont know what i am going to do without her, my life is going to fall apart. i know her and i havent had the best relationship since i was 14 but i know she still loves me and only wants the best for me. i just hate to see her suffer and go through soo much pain. All i am going to say is Cancer is a bitch and i hate it. i have lost 2 friends to cancer and that hurts but this is whats going to actually break me. i try to be strong everytime i go in and sit with her or whatever but it hurts, i stay up all night just thinking about what my future is going to be like without her. i cant even write this entry without balling my eyes out. i am trying to watch jersey shore and be in a good mood but this just isnt working out.

WHOEVER FOLLOWS ME ON HERE PLEASE INBOX ME SOME MESSAGES OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND PRAYERS FOR MY MOM, I WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE IT.