i am a drunk emotional wreck right now. not sure what to do anymore because of a situation i am in but i also feel like i will never be good enough. i feel like i need to have an eating disorder so that i can be super skinny and then somehow get super pretty. i just wish that for once i meant something to someone other than a piece of ass or a joke. i also wish that the guy who i really needed to talk to about something important would talk to me so that things could somewhat get better. I just dont know what to do anymore. i am not happy at all. i really want to just cut and forget it all, i wish my best friend was around when i really need to have a talk with her about everything thats going on. i am giving up a lot already in my life so why not just give up completely? 

To any of my followers, i am sorry i dont update enough and i wish that i had someone to write in my ask box to cheer me up and tell me the things i need to hear.